Not my best day...

Nothing like going to school to make you reevaluate your life choices. 

I'm having a really hard day. We received Zander's new diagnosis a week ago. I am completely overwhelmed with trying to understand him, relearning how to parent (again), trying to keep up with school, helping my kids succeed with their school,  managing my mental health, trying to help everyone else manage their mental health…

Today I'm failing at all of it. 

I know that my ADHD is making school more challenging because of the online format.  I don't know what to do to make it easier. I don't know how to ask for help. I feel stupid asking for help. I've always been a good student, but this set of classes is kicking my butt.

Recently, my cousin told me about her son who had had a bad day at football and wanted to quit. Her advice was, “Never quit on a bad day. You can only quit on a good day.” I'm repeating that to myself over and over… and over. 

Today I bombed a quiz. It was an open-book quiz. I did one of my assignments from last week completely wrong and need to rewrite it. I received negative and confusing feedback on another writing assignment (that I thought I had done well on). I'm in a constant battle with my inner perfectionist trying to find the line between learning and improving and having unhealthy expectations of myself.  

My brain feels like a spider web being pulled in too many different directions, with the mental load pilling up faster than I can deal with it, and the web is starting to snap.  

What do you do when you feel like the world is crumbling around you? 

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